I want my heart to stop beating because I just got the call no mother wants to get. The call that screams your child is gone. He was 42 years old, but he was my baby. The words echo suddenly, He is gone. I scream, No. We spoke just a few hours earlier. Make him come back, Jesus! You can do it. Its only a few hours. Oh God, turn back time. Once a true optimist and strong believer, I find my faith in God shaken to the core. I blame myself, I want to hurt myself, and I want to die. I hold my breath to stop my life, but I keep on breathing. I pound my chest to stop my heart, but it keeps on beating. How can that be when it is so shattered? I exist, just exist, like an empty car, misfiring on all cylinders and careening out of control downhill. : I dont want to live. Yet I wake up every morning with guilt and grief so heavy, why wont it kill me? Why wont God let me die? Why did He save Abrahams son? Why did he raise Lazarus? Did He love them more than me? Is this a punishment for my sins, for being bad all my life? Is my son in heaven with Jesus? Will I ever be able to see him again? Does God hear me? Does He even exist? The questions haunt me. I must search for answers in the junk pile of my life or I cannot go on.

Too Young For The Carousel will make you feel like you're a good friend of Bobby Parrish. The author's unique self-narrative style is similar to that of J.D. Salinger's.

Gangs are responsible for over 80 percent of the crime in the United States. The cost of gang violence is staggering. In many communities, no one feels safe walking down his or her own streetsand that, Dan Googen feels, is simply too high a cost to pay. Dan was a soldier, trained in combat overseas. When he returns home to see that his own neighborhood is held captive by a violent invasion force of its own, he springs into action. He goes undercover and begins to live the gangland life. What he doesnt count on is how his life will be affected by the friendships he forms with the members of the gangs. His new secret life is in bitter conflict with his ideals and goals. Can he do what needs to be doneor will these new friendships test his resolve? While living undercover, Dan befriends Tiny, one of the gang members. With Dans help, Tiny is able to accomplish the unthinkable: he breaks free from the gangs and enrolls in college. There, he becomes a breakout basketball star; his life is now on an unstoppably positive path. When Tinys dreams of playing pro ball finally come true, he makes good on his promise to help the kids he left behind in the hood. He comes home, a local hero determined to do anything he can to help. Tiny receives the answer to his prayers but not the one he expected.

After Sincere's mother was killed by a suspect fleeing apprehension, he was adopted by the pursuing officer and his wife. She was an Alameda County deputy district attorney with a heart of gold. After losing her to a painful battle with pancreatic cancer, Sincere turned to a life of organized crime to ease his pain. In his search for a place to belong, his life suddenly took a turn for the worst. Sadly, one of his prostitutes was brutally murdered by one of her johns. Consequently, her brother Sav launched an all out street war, determined to utterly destroy his organization. If that wasn't enough, Sincere made matters dramatically worse by unknowingly killing his connections brother while playing the Good Samaritan. Unfortunately, his good deeds were repaid by a succession of death and deception. www.WT3publishing.com Instagram: @williamtravisthe3 Twitter: williamtravist3

A World War II Chronicle, Volume I, 1942-1943. Compiled and Edited by Melanie A. Ippolito. The beautiful and amazing love letters written by an Irish woman and an American soldier from Lockport, New York, during World War II. This is the first of three planned volumes and covers 1942-43. Very detailed coverage of how the war affected these two and the people around them. 58 photos and documents.

It’s shortly after World War II in Eastern Europe when a tormented young woman steps up to the door of a speeding train...and prepares to throw her baby outside. What happens next will forever alter the lives of the young woman, the horrified teacher who steps up to stop her...and the three-month old baby born into such dark circumstances. And so begins the life of Yugoslavian Ramona, whose childhood will be terribly marred by the weaknesses of those entrusted with her care. Buffeted from place to place with the violent secrets of how she came to be slowly revealed to her, Ramona eventually decides to leave the horrors of her childhood behind for a new start in Canada. There she begins to find her way and learn to love...until fresh tragedy sends her life off course and she finds herself trapped in an abusive marriage as miserable as her childhood. But Ramona has endured so much; she has vast reservoirs of strength within her. Now with two children of her own to protect, she slowly begins to extricate herself from the horror of her marriage to build a new life, free of abuse at last.

The Alec London Series is a series written for boys, 8 – 10 years old. Alec London is introduced in Stephanie Perry Moore's previously released series, The Morgan Love Series. In this new series, readers get a glimpse of Alec's life up close and personal. The series provides moral lessons that will aid in character development, teaching boys how to effectively deal with the various issues they face at this stage of life. The series will also help boys develop their english and math skills as they read through the stories and complete the entertaining and educational exercises provided at the end of each chapter and in the back of the book. Alec's mom has decided to stay in L.A. permanently to focus on her acting career. In addition to being angre, Alec is confused, why would mom leave them for a dumb job so far away. To add to the confusion in his life, Alec is getting into trouble and being bullied, both at home and at school. At school he and his brother Antoine get into it when Alec tells the Coach that it was Antoine and not him who knocked down their teammate. Later Alec ends up in his dad's office, after attempting to keep, Gilmer, the new kids in school from getting beat up by Tyrod and his gang. Alec gets mad with Gilmer when he does not say thank you for trying to help him or speak up for him when in his father's office. On the home front, Alec is further frustrated by his mom's decision about her acting career and her new friends. And, he is being pick on by his jerk brother Antoine. His biggest challenge however is Little P, his second cousin who grandma brings to stay with them when she returns. Little P is a seventh grader and a bully. Along with Antoine, they rough up Alec at home, making things even harder for him. As Alec struggles though trying to do well in school, stay out of trouble and handle things going on at home, he needs help. When he goes to church on Easter Sunday, Alec hears a message that helps him look at his life a bit differently. He learns that the right way to deal with all that is going on in his life is to let his parents handle their situation, pray and trust God to him show him how and help him be his best.

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